Kourtney Kardashian Recalls Pressure to Bounce Back After Welcoming Son Mason in 2009: 'Stressing Myself Out'

Kourtney Kardashian Barker is remembering the pressure she felt to "bounce back" after having her first child.

On this week's episode of The Kardashians, the Lemme co-founder, 45, has a fitting for the Emmys, which she was attending with her Blink-182 drummer husband Travis Barker, 48. Kardashian Barker is visited by her mom Kris Jenner, 68, sharing that she's been having some anxiety about going back into the real world after welcoming son Rocky Thirteen.

"For the past two months. I've loved being at home with the baby and I don't want to leave. I'm starting to get a bit of anxiety about going back into the world," the mom of four says in a confessional.

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In the scene, Kardashian Barker tells her mom that she still has 10 pounds to lose "if I care to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight."

"I care to get back, but I'm breastfeeding. So I'm taking my time and they say to keep your vagina intact. You should not jump or run for like, six months," she adds.

"That makes sense. You should do Pilates," Jenner tells her daughter.

"I'm doing Pilates tomorrow. I've just been walking," Kardashian Barker says, telling her mom that her family has plans to go to Australia for a month to accompany Barker on his band's tour.

As she comes out wearing a corset, Jenner compliments her daughter on how she looks. "Can you breathe?" the momager asks.

"No, but I can't breathe. My boobs are humongous and filled with milk and veins," Kardashian Barker responds.

In a confessional, Kardashian Barker admits that she's not making it a priority to get back to her size pre-pregnancy.

"My priority is not bouncing back and getting my body back in shape like it has been in the past. I remember after having Mason that it used to be a really big thing to talk about how soon can you bounce back and everyone would do magazine covers," she recalls from welcoming her son Mason in 2009.

"I did a magazine cover in a bikini and was stressing myself out to eat a certain diet. This time, I'm really just all about nourishing my body and eating the best foods to keep up my milk supply."

New episodes of The Kardashians drop every Thursday at 12 a.m. ET on Hulu.